This is an excerpt taken from my upcoming nonfiction book. Enjoy!
A year ago to this day, New Year's Eve 2015, I sat down and uncontrollably sobbed. Not for any immediate loss or worry, but for what was to come. What would that be? I did not know.
As I sat alone with my thoughts my intuition was telling me that 2016 was going to be a very sad year. As the tears streamed down my face the feelings grew stronger. The only thought I had was that I didn’t want 2016 to happen. With my brother having terminal lung cancer, I figured it was going to be a sad year because maybe we would be saying goodbye to him. I remember rationalizing in my head that maybe that was why I was so emotional.
Fast forward to today, one year later, and I have tears once again. Not because I don’t want 2017 to happen because damn, it can’t come fast enough. It is from what has transpired over this year. Little did I know just how sad this year would be. My brother is still here and I am thankful for that. But I had no idea that my mom would be gone and that my daughter would be diagnosed with Non Hodgkins Lymphoma.
With much soul searching this year I know all of this has happened for a reason. There are many, many lessons to be learned here. We are to do good things with these lessons. And as I have always said, you need to look for the silver lining in everything. If something is not going your way in life you need to remember that there is a reason for what is happening.
This year isn’t entirely lost. There were many good things that happened. My oldest daughter, Katie, graduated with honors in April from U of M Ann Arbor. We are so very proud of her and all that she has accomplished! My daughter, Emily, finished out her semester on the Dean’s list for 7 consecutive semesters in a roll at MSU. That would be since day one as a Freshman! She would have had a 4.0 this semester but missed it by one point. Considering all she’s been through, I can proudly say she is truly amazing! My husband and I traveled and attended a handful of concerts and hung out with our wonderful friends.
To bring this year to a close it could not have ended better than to see my daughter’s pet scan clear and to hear the doctor say that she is doing better than expected and that her results were more than he had anticipated. She is in remission!!!!
We are ending this year with a beautiful gift from God. Thanks be to God.
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