I want to thank my daughter for currently bringing to my attention that I am sensitive. It’s not a bad thing. It has actually helped me to understand myself better. So thank you Emily for bringing this up to me in a fun way.
Pretty much all my life I’ve been told I am too sensitive or too emotional. I have often wondered why I have been labeled this way. I mean all I do is wake up and go about my day. I have never thought to myself that a certain action meant that I am sensitive. I am comfortable in my skin yet this negative feeling I get when labeled "sensitive" somewhat bothered me.
So I set out to research what qualities sensitive people have and I found out the following: Sensitive people are both introverts and extroverts. They are more considerate and polite. They feel more deeply and process things on a deeper level. Sensitive people are very intuitive and go deep within to figure things out. They don’t like scary movies because they can feel the depth of what’s on the screen even though it’s not real. They have tremendous empathy. They tend to want to work out alone or at the gym when it’s not crowded. They need mental breaks and feel completely comfortable being alone. They are perfectionists. They have a hard time making decisions. Add that to the stimuli with the sights and sounds that they take in of their surroundings, good and bad, sensitive people get overwhelmed very quickly. After reviewing these qualities I realized I have many of them.
I have found over the last couple months just how sensitive I am. Maybe it’s because I’ve been able to step aside from some of my responsibilities to take care of my daughter, which has helped me to slow down and take notice. I have found that I’m very observant and that I embrace situations and scenes and pull them in where I can feel them. When I meet people I can sense their happiness or sadness, even when no words are spoken. Lately I have found myself smiling at complete strangers while I observe their actions or a good deed they may be doing. They don’t see me smile, it’s just an automatic response for me.
Spending time in a hospital, especially on a floor where you see so many people fighting for their lives, has given me more reason to embrace my sensitivity. The people here are just like you and I with the exception that their lives have been put on hold. Interestingly I find it so difficult to open up to the family members here. That has bothered me because my desire to talk to them is shadowed by my overthinking on what to say and I consider the fact that maybe they don’t want to talk. Overthinking and worrying about saying the right thing is one of the not so good qualities of being sensitive. But I really don’t have to speak any words, I can send a caregiver a passing smile because I understand their journey. And sometimes that could be all they need.
Being sensitive is not a bad thing. Being sensitive is where I feel comfortable. I am glad to finally understand why I do the things I do. Embrace who you are. We are all individuals with our very own qualities and traits. If there is something you don’t like, you can change it. But understand it first before deciding.
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